選擇相對

如果逼得我要再做一次那樣的選擇：我或是你的人生。
我當然會選我的人生。
因為這種選擇並沒有開放給我期它可能性，
換言之，
如果只有兩個選項，
我寧可做我自己，
也不想被當作次等的選項。

那個要我選擇他的家人，而犧牲我人生的男人，
他讓我明白，如果對方的家人根本就把妳當空氣，
或是最差的女人，
那麼，即使妳拿了真心誠意，
也只會被丟在地上踩。

然後，仔細想想，
這是多麼可笑。
執著著看不見其它可能選項，
不是因為你不願意，
而是你拉不下那個臉，讓他做更多選擇。

拉不下臉放開孩子去做他自己，
不相信這個世界的其他人可以給他/她幸福，
女人，一個母親，
難道妳自認妳是一切的天，怎麼可能。

女孩的主體性，不僅開放給所有性別是女的人，
相對於女性的性別是女孩的人，
也同樣應該如此。

My THOUGHT OF Devils and Gods

the music is here:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1RdmeI6ZZI


這首歌和 Dark side of the sun 被我歸類為一對，
因為Dark side of the Sun 表達的是那些紅燈區女孩的痛苦，
這首歌則是唱著警惕紅燈區的想法。


Lyrics :


Devils and Gods now that's an idea
But if we believe that it's They who decide
That's the ultimate detractor of crimes
'cause Devils and Gods
They are You and I
Devils and Gods
They are You and I
Devils and Gods
Safe and Inside


Rebels as Gods
So Are they out there?
one would surmise that this must be the case
Some are not ok
with what's taken place
long ago
A covenant made
On earth long ago a covenant made that
One could not rule
but all would partake

Devils can hide inside an idea
Placed there by Gods for you to think like this
If I were dead would he love me then?
That then begins a secret death wish
That then begins your secret death wish
You'll gain his love
but too cold to kiss

Oh don't let this lady lay
Don't make this lady lie
No don't let this lady lay
Don't make this lady lie

Devils and Gods now that's an idea
But if we believe that it's They who decide
That's the ultimate detractor of crimes
'cause Devils and Gods
They are You and I
Devils and Gods
They are You and I
Devils and Gods
Safe and Inside


我想說的是，
男人無法理解女人的痛，就像沒有人可以理解別人的痛苦一樣。
尤其是，那個痛苦不僅來自於回憶，
還包括了肉體上的疼痛。
有人形容，性對女孩而言是撕裂般的痛，
事實上，
背負這個痛感一輩子，
比死還難受。


所以，
說女孩都是二手貨的人，
不僅不是個男人，
他根本不是個人。

still my Dear

Some mistakes in my past,
My dear, very very abstract,
The day, the night, the midnight, the sun, we live in the different situations,
And I become more and more lonely, if I could take over it, I have a belief,
Anytime I can around you.

Not real, not romantics,
That's what I take, and tell you, deeper and deeper,
Write the words with strange moods, in unclear grammar,
I pour all into them.

No matter what I spend my time to a stupid thing,
Because they still, like a river,
Sheffield,
No snow,
Sunny day you send,
Still be my dear.

I am a broken stone,
Here will be bloom blood fantastic flowers.

Enjoy the silent

All my feeling besides trivial things
All what I love could put in my heart
All I need in my mind
All things I suffered in goes to the world
The worlds all bothers me

I can know the beauty in your eyes
That's been so beautiful that watermark can reflect moon's imagine
Even I can't grasp
Painful I don't wanna, though
It's still real been too much
I know it is
It is what's really swinging swinging
Like your voice
Voice and smile shinning shinning
How I love you, as river just gonna to her sea
Where that she can find a place
No bothering thing
No marriages
No genders
No one will know

more I grow than I know is YOU

All I do this thing after all I know
And everything what I meet looks of purities
As you, so real as it is not  a peace world
Thus we discuss that if anything we have done what we hope so
No more we need

How it is possible to show a man who never ask you the meaning
The secret you can drift through the sea, shining and sparking wave take you
Cross dream and bay ,draw you down a mirror
No matter what you see

As you, it is too stupid that keep in mind
As you, surely my mind and anything I send here you can understand
I said, nothing can't be changed
As you, as you
Nothing you see in the mirror can change the bright smile you give me

if it must say NO, then only nope and NOPE

Sometimes I scared to discuss my experiences what all about MALE, even better, the men.That's why women always look so mystic for someone who never understood a girl, if he didn't ask any question about female. Well, it's a totally mistaken thing in our culture.

And I know that I have no abilities to change the kind of facts.
How sad when I think about this thing, and NO ONE WOULD REALLY TAKE CARE IT.The devastating and interminable depression were hard to express, maybe I will give apologies to every man after I met the challenges but not NOW.

Yes, all things make me like a stupid girl, a hard book, a too tough and tough woman, and intend to be a celibate life. And my love is pessimistic. Actually, I hate the body with a female in gender but it is my life. Can I contradict myself in this way? No, women all expect a lovely living, including men. My body and heart consist all facts I have effort until now, that's the meaning for me.

Deep voice as memories as feelings and tears I embrace it everyday, well, not every day, just in some moment. And the moment will past like just a slice but actually all day. The first thing is divorce, the second thing is sexploitation, and the last is everything all of both the front.

Couples marry to each other because love, but divorce for not love. It's too strange to accept, and heartbreak, completely tear truth up. Then that sex attractiveness should be in provocative in that way with little (even no) trust and commitment, just for desire and HUMAN NATURE (how stupid reason), make a girl become worry and fear pregnant, is it human nature? No...!!

I have believed, love, must be a creation for given, and anything based on the creation for given, that's why people know we can do commitment could be proved. Like Mary Wollstonecraft said,

... an immortal soul, not restrained by mechanical laws, and struggling to free itself from shackles of matter; contributes to, instead of disturbing, the order of creation, when, cooperating with the spirits, it tries to govern itself by the invariable rule that, in a degree, before our imagination our faints, the universe is regulated.

What's it you know that human nature? Isn't it to create something to the world without malicious intention? And how about commitment? Isn't it to be a nature but not blind admiration, and a confident of respect? ...

Why the short life without this kind of things but could be living everyday...

OH let me sailing go

I know that he has gone,
that day you said,
you said that all promises you done.
But will not really let it go.

Oh, you said we have a travel,
into the world,
until you leave it go.

One day he opens the book I'd given,
'why not we stop dreaming, the life must be a real thing'
I can't say yes,
my heart had sunk in the sea.

Oh, you said we have a travel,
into the world,
until you leave it go.

I know the dream what I dreamed all make you fascinated,
my dream is that you see,
Sailing to the world.
And your promises let it go.

One day you said,
'yep you as an angel appears to the world suddenly,
I can't have you, hope you still be a beautiful angel.'
I know that you said we have a travel,
and I can be your angel, not your lover.

That's all let me go.

Sky and the ground I stand in,
Surely I understand,
what promises in your hand,
the cloud as you said,
we won't love each other because I am your angel.

abnormal,irregular, and nothing else?

Um, after the talk with Frank last night, well, 
I can recognize the actual state in my brain could be irregular program, usually.

Or the lover was far away more than past when I determined my mind to do philosopher. 

And that is an inconceivable point with no return, like the professor Lan (a wonderful woman) told me, you just keeping the way until you can never go ahead.

Ah, a feminist, what is a feminist?

Our goal is various that to show how the world where and ever you can't picture even just in thought that a BOUNDARY between anyone else, animals, natural, human, and many many things. Somehow they would say we are in a chaos. But how can we see the boundary? How can we have the boundaries? I can't imagine it.

Another observation in my mind was an ethical issue, personal character.

We can identify ourselves and friends who around us, and the lovers, you would wonder to know more and more what's in their mind so that we pay attention to them. And the trick things we hate it if things trick us. Well, the things must be the boundaries what I have asserted.

P.S. What I post the photos or the pictures  just my personal favor, it's often irrelevant to my words. 

Carol of the bells

What the picture in your mind, now.

Is the philosophers' painting to the world? 

Or, the prayers' oral silence, please, give all the peace, 

My sisters all expect the peace, in the woman's love.

They said, people who immersed into wild nature,

Made desire growing, make the lover depressed. What is the aim?

Can we catch more deeper to their real form, where are no sorrow thing are remembered,

I said,

Carol songs,

Women lovers,

I'm heartfelt to see, the world where for you now getting under peace.

女權的困惑

在英國旅行的頭幾天，我很幸運遇到一個朋友，她也是主修哲學的大學生。

不過，更幸運的應該是她專攻女性問題，政治，人權等問題。

她問了我一個問題，我記不清楚每一個字，不過意思大概是：在妳的國家，女人是依賴男性還是獨立居多？

我不知道該怎麼回答她，所以我保持沈默，這段聊天也沒有再繼續下去。

而且這個問題跟著我回到我的國家。我還是不知道應該怎麼回答。

如果依賴男人是一般的事，這個問題就容易多了。相反，如果依賴男人是不一般的事，一個不依賴男人的女人，她所代表的意義是什麼？

事實上，她和一個人所代表的意義並沒有什麼不同，而且無論這個人是男人還是女人。

既然她是一個人，她就和一個人應該賦予的責任一樣，充滿無限的信念想求證,

或者因為偏見而將事實視而不見, 情感會破壞某一時刻的理智, 痛苦會磨光她的信賴。

期待男人的安慰是一種枷鎖，她沒有自己的理性判斷使她的人生喪失選擇。

同時，她也應該背負理性選則的結果。